Fields of Joy

In my quiet time with Jesus, I had a vision of a field. I felt God say to me that there would be a field of joy! I thought, "I hope so," because I am fed up with being literally bed-bound on some days due to my heart not finding a stable heart rate. I would constantly feel dizzy when standing up, and my heart rate would go up to 180 bpm. Some days, I can't even take a shower or brush my teeth because of my heart rate. I contacted the nurse with some ECGs, and she called me on Friday to say the operation wasn't successful. Now, there are talks with another consultant in Bristol to discuss managing my symptoms. This may involve exploring the idea of a pacemaker again or having stronger medication, which isn't ideal as a future solution.

What do I do with this information? I am frustrated, yet not surprised, as the way I was feeling wasn't normal. But all I can lean on is that God has a plan for me, and He will use me for His glory. I have a sense of urgency; it seems like God wants Christians to reflect on what we truly believe and how we are living it out. We live in a world that is so broken, and the healing power of Jesus is so needed not just physically but emotionally. We all know Jesus is coming back, but we don't know the hour or the time, so let's not waste time speculating that.

But what we do know is these words of truth below:

Revelation 3:15-16 reads: "I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish you were either one or the other! So, because you are lukewarm—neither hot nor cold—I am about to spit you out of my mouth.

We need to live a life where we are acting in the way of the Jesus Way, being led by the Holy Spirit to speak into people's lives and share the good news. This doesn't mean Bible bashing; it means showing love in our actions and praying for God to shift the atmosphere where we live, work, and even in our own church for breakthrough. It is time to rise up and see the goodness of God, even when prayers are not answered, even when we feel defeated because we have a life to look forward to in eternity. This pain is only temporary yet we still need to recognised it and acknowledge what we are going through is painful and is frustrating.

If anyone knows me I will always happily share how Jesus has impact myself growing up I would share in school, in college and university and now in my workplace where appropriate. I am not ashamed because I know there are consequences for people who don't accept Jesus into their lives, it's an eternity without with with Jesus.

As Christians, I don't want to reach heaven and have Jesus show me what I could have experienced on earth. I envision boxes of gifts, unopened because I chose to live life on my terms, potentially missing out on the fullness of God's intended life for me.